Two weeks to go

I intended to write a bit last week about Nathan but, it was a hard day as it is and, adding to it, James & I came down with some kind of stomach virus.

The day came and the day went. Between throwing up and sleeping we both thought a lot about our son and I was able to have a proper cry for him. I love and miss him so much - I can't even describe the piece of me that feels missing even three years later.

It's still incredibly emotional so, I'm going to move on now...

My NST's & BPP's are all going well and Hannah is doing great.

Her mommy... not so much. I have Symphysis Pubic Dysfunction which is causing a great deal of pain. Oh my gosh the pain! It actually reminds me very much of the first several days after a c-section when your pelvis hurts and it's hard to walk. Or stand. Or sit. Or... you get the picture.

I'm also being monitored for Pre-eclampsia. This is a new development just in the last few days. On Friday there was some protein in my urine and my blood pressure was a little higher than usual.

We returned today and there is still protein in my urine and my blood pressure was even a little higher so, blood work was done. I will get those results pretty quickly and then we'll see where we go from there.

The doctor said 37 weeks is full term so, if needed, we'll get her out early.

There is a strong part of me that is ready to deliver her on Wednesday. That part of me is growing with each painful step I take.

But, two weeks is barely more than one week so the other part of me says "suck it up, buttercup".

As it stands, I'm scheduled for the c-section on July 29th @ 9AM at exactly 38 weeks.

I made the switch from Lovenox to Heparin and it has been another miserable experience to add to the list. The Heparin needle is twice as thick, the liquid feels twice as thick and it's twice a day. I seriously hate the Heparin and can't wait to be done with it and back on Lovenox (which isn't until post delivery).

Ryan is still marking off the days on his calendar and is very excited about meeting his little sister. He talks about her all the time and has started asking for two of everything so that "Hannah can have the other one".

I'm tired folks and I'm not sure when I'll write again. I hope to update at least once more before delivery day but, we'll see if I manage it.

Please keep my family in your thoughts.