Friday, September 5, 2014

Finding some positivity among disappointment

At 14DPIUI I tested BFN.
No surprise of course but, yes, I was a tiny bit disappointed. You're always hoping for a miracle, right?

I stopped the progesterone after that. I know I was going to keep it going until 18DPIUI and test one more time but honestly, I've known for some time now that it didn't work. I don't see any point in prolonging it.

I've been tossing around the idea of not tracking anything for the next four months. No OPK's, no fertility monitor and no recording data on an app.

As The Beatles would say "Let It Be".

When I notice EWCM I'll make sure to throw is some BDing but, I want to relax for a bit. I've been tracking, POAS and everything else for nearly two years. It's time to BD for fun, again - whenever - and not think about what the timing is.

When the time comes, will I be able to stick to the plan and not check an OPK? I don't know. It feels like one of those things that's easy to say but maybe not so easy to do. We'll see.

Remember I said my RE suggested I lose ten pounds before getting started on IVF? And, you might also remember that I said that the reality is, I have quite a bit more than that to lose.

Well, today was weigh-in #1 and the first week I lost 5 pounds! That's quite a good start, I think. And it's motivated me to keep going.

More about that can be read here (for people who have the password).

Everyone have a good weekend!

PS - you might notice that I have kind of stolen TTC In My 40's blog postings style. Well, they say imitation is the sincerest form of flattery!

8 comments:

  1. I am sorry about this cycle not working. Disappointment is totally understandable and I also love how you are incorporating positivity ( which is not easy to do, but so very necessary).

    Congrats on losing the weight. That is huge!

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    1. Thanks!
      At least I had something good to help me through something bad. :)

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  2. So sorry girl!!!! One month closer to it happen. Awesome Awesome on the weight loss!!!

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    1. Thank you, something to feel proud about even if it's not my first choice celebration. :)

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  3. I'm sorry. :( but I like your idea of taking it easy and letting the next few months be for fun. And fantastic job on your first 5!

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    1. Thanks, Megan. Wouldn't you know I caught myself recording AF on my FF app.
      Old habits die hard!

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  4. I know what you mean about wishing for miracles. I am praying that you will soon get yours. Taking it easy next month sounds like a good plan, but I guess you just have to follow your heart and see how you feel when the fertile window opens again.

    Well done at the weight loss front - it is so comforting to have something positive to focus on.. Hugs.xx

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    1. Well, it would take a miracle for me to get pregnant on my own during the next four months. But, I'll hope for it, anyway!

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